March 31, 2009

Frustration!!!!!

So in my mind there are two kinds of frustration. The first is the kind that you can get frustrated over learn from it, make changes and move on. The second is the kind that you get frustrated and no matter how much you try to either forget, change or deal with it you only end up more frustrated. I usually don't vent on the blog because it really isn't the place, but when you are having a hard time being heard, there needs to be that moment of getting it off your chest.

It seems at the moment that there are more frustrating moments that falls into the second category. I just pray that when things work out it is all for the better.

I sat and had a good talk with my parents tonight, and I so miss those talks. I miss that closeness and the understanding that we have always had. I was able to get my frustrations out but ended up feeling more lost than I was when I went in. I know what I want, but I don't know what another wants. I would like to say that we want the same, but there is no way of knowing because the communication has stopped right now. I have so many people who love me and my family and I love having them around (even if it is only to vent), that are around me all the time, but I feel as though I am alone. The person I need the most, makes me feel like we don't understand each other. I want things to work but out for the better, whatever that may be. Right now the unknown has hit and I hate this.

The trouble that we face is no different than what many others face. I know everyone has trials and moments where it feels like the world is ending right here and now, but it always seems to go on. I look at this for the moment as a great thing that happened, and we are ready for the next step. If it hadn't of happened, there is no telling where we would be.

There is only so much that can be given and taken on any given day, and it seems as though what I can give and take is already a week ahead of me.

I have grown in a way that sitting and waiting is not for me. When problems arise, I want them dealt with and handled in a timely manner. For the past while it seems like things are always being pushed to the back. I have taken it for a while and I am ready for it to stop. Now I know it isn't going to happen over night, but I do want things to at least be put in perspective. Keep me informed. Show me the progress. There are some things that can't be dealt with over a matter of minutes, but weeks and months passing are not ok. I want to say that there is more that I could have done, but I honestly don't know that even if I had tried, it would have moved any faster.

I know this feeling wont last long, but for the time that it does last, I hope it never comes again. I don't want this to be a downer for anyone, I just needed a moment to vent. If you know me, you know that I do that well.

March 22, 2009

Prego Update

I can't believe that I am half way done! It seems like only yesterday that we found out. I am very excited to be having another little girl. Aubrey will now have a playmate!

Not only is this pregnancy been so different from Aubrey, but I am finding it way more difficult than being pregnant the first time. Having to take care of a 2 year old while baking another one, it well... just wears you out! With Aubrey I was only really sick for the first, like 3 months. With this little one baking I was constantly nauseated for 4 and 1/2! I am so glad that the sickness has started to go away, only in time to start to feel my little one move! And today she sure has not liked me one bit! I compare everything to Aubrey because that is all I know. People would tell me stories of how they were being rib kicked, having baby hiccups, and bladder kicks. I seriously didn't receive any of these, so i had no problem being pregnant. I now know what people are talking about. Although I really haven't received any of those yet... this little on has been more active than our last. I am very excited to see what this little one brings me in the coming months. I am just hoping to keep up with my active 2 year old for the summer moths with a baby baking. :)

A Birthday Celebration!

So this past week we celebrated our baby girl's 2nd birthday! I can't believe that two years ago I was just coming home from the hospital with a brand new baby and now my little one is growing up so fast, right before my eyes! We had friends and family over for a BBQ and then cake and presents. I loved that the kids were all playing together so great. It is nice to have friends with kids close to my child's age. It makes get-together's much more fun. (Right now we are the odd one's out with only one child... but that is soon to change) :)

She has gotten into Tinkerbell lately so we did a Tinkerbell theme. This was her cake!

Out of everything that happened at her party, my favorite part was that Aubrey blew out her own candle! I was so proud of her. She is just learning and growing so fast!

Eating her own piece of birthday cake. She had a blast eating all the frosting. When I was cutting the cake she went on to pick off the cake ALL the flowers!

So this was right after she opened her Mickey mouse Clubhouse gift, and seriously all the kids were glued to the box. Even Aubrey and she had more gifts to open. She was getting upset with all the other kids wanting her toy... it was funny to watch.

Now this was taken after everyone went home from the party. I went into the living room and sat down to take a breather from the party. I heard Aubrey singing Happy Birthday. I thought it was cute... but then she just kept singing it. So I went into the kitchen and she was up on the counter singing to herself Happy Birthday, and then taking a bite of cake and repeating. I was laughing so hard, I just had to get a picture.

March 13, 2009

So today was the big day...

We are expecting our second baby and today we found out that it is a....

March 01, 2009

My new china!!!

Ok so I have known since before my wedding that I have a set of china. Good china. I never saw it, but I knew I I had it. Well with circumstances recently in our family, my parents brought them down to me. So I took this evening to go through them and see what I had. Oh my heavens... there was so much, and it is so beautiful. This china was bought by my Grandpa Smith who died three years before I was born. He bought it in Japan, I believe, while he was in the Navy serving. So anyway... as I opened up the boxes... this is what I found...

There is a full service for 10 people, 12 on some of the plates.


This is a close up of the plates... isn't the design amazing!?!?!


Here is a close up of the one side of the tea cups.


Needless to say I am way excited to use these for a fancy evening.